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6.18.2009

"what do you do all day?"

I asked many of my clients this question while I was still working. I was always amused by there "venting" and would silently chuckle and think "I WISH!" Life would be so much easier without a 3:30am alarm...4am drive...6-7 hours on my feet (doing what I loved!)...daycare to pick up R...clean...cook...spend time with family...bedtime rituals...11pm bedtime.
"PIECE OF CAKE"
Have you ever eaten your words? I have! This stay-at-home mommy job is no joke. Let me intro with this...I am blessed! My family is blessed and I in no way want to sound ungrateful. In addition...I love my girl! She is incredibly strong, undeniably gorgeous, there is sweetness that oozes out of her very being, she has given me and Chris a true sense of purpose. Here comes the "but"...but, she is two! These past few weeks have been almost more than I can bare. Have you ever seen a kid in public and thought...wow, there is no way my kid will ever act like that. I have said that countless times...again, eating my own words. She (my girl) is that kid. Tantrums, uncontrollable, "no", "mine", hitting, biting, jumping off things, climbing on things, slamming doors, pinching, throwing...you name it, she is doing it! I have tried everything to control her...time outs, spankings... trying to find that one thing that works. Then I hit it...an emotional breakdown for mommy (pregnant mommy)...feelings of being extremely weak, not cut out for this job, failure...and to the internet I went...monster.com saying to myself "I am getting out of here!" Chris, now knowing what she can be like (experienced ONE episode) is frustrated...it consumes all conversation and we are at a loss.
Enters my big sis and countless phone calls to my mom! Missy is an amazing mother...she is loving, speaks in a way where she "means" it, and follows through. Now, don't get me wrong...my neice and my crazy girl have totally different personalities...however, I realized that I was not being hard enough on R. I was exhausted...and she was running with it! On a good note...since Miss left and I got my head back in the game...R has been better. Enjoyable!
Until today...in which she told on herself! She smeared her favorite lip gloss all over my couch. I was totally petrified when I saw it...I love this couch and have got countless other "messes" out with very little effort! Not this one...I would say I started cleaning this mess at 10:30am and am still working on it at 4pm...praying that it is not ruined! Here are a few quick shots...

So...if you are wondering what it would be like to stay at home all day with your perfect child...be willing to admit they are NOT PERFECT...and enjoy funny moments like this...

sorry! had to remove a pic of the cutest toosh you have ever seen!

...please do not tell papaw Randy I posted this pic! It will be removed soon enough!

6 comments:

Missy said...

OMG!!!! what did my precious niece do???? good luck with the couch, but what a perfect butt!!! and sweet little angel face. love ya!!!!

Gramee said...

Sarah, I promise it will get better! What if you had 2 of R? I think that is the reason I can not remember alot about Aimee and Emmi's childhood. They were good and did not get into much but, there were 2 of them. One thing I can tell you, it seems at the time that it is a huge deal but take it from someone who knows before you know it she will be gone and you will wish she were there to smear her favorite lip gloss on your couch all over again. I miss those moments more than words could express! Enjoy them while you have them...but, I promise they will get better...R is only making memories for her Mommy and Daddy!
The picts are awesome! (I wish my butt looked like that)
Have fun with Baby Easton at the beach. He is a little Angel!

The Odeh's said...

Hi Sara!! Welcome to parenthood of a daughter. Boys are so much easier!! Hana has drawn with crayon on my carpet in pink!!!! Still there! 3 years later. Gonna change that carpet one day. And, she dripped clorox bleach on my carpet upstairs. Why was she able to do that? Because I had hid some Soft Scrub under a cabinet and she found it and was bringing it to me. She is adorable and it seems you are getting a full dose of the hardships of "stay at home Momdom"! It is the best, funniest, most rewarding and greatest job of all! Welcome and feel free to call me with any questions.

Aunt Melody said...

She is priceless!! Looking forward to seeing you guys soon. Just in case, don't bring any lip gloss. tee hee! Love ya!

Anonymous said...

Sorry I missed the Butt pic - I know it was adorable. Well, unfortunately, children are not perfect. Some are more headstrong than others, more inquisitive than most, and some just too smart for their own good. I truely believe this of our girl. It will make her great eventually and God will give you the strength to get through and I have no doubt one day you will be laughing about it all and wishing you good grasp it again but you can't, so, embrace and go forward. She is perfect to Pops and me and we love her strength but I know dealing with it every day could be difficult. Yet, her smile or the look she gives you, or those marvelous hugs, makes everything OK!

LOVE YOU ALL - Norma

Cheryl said...

I know exactly what you are feeling! I watched a wonderful baby totally turn on me! The past 2 1/2 years at home have been hard. It was probably hardest while pregnant with #2. But you learn what works and you go with it! I had the same thoughts and will probably have them again with Peyton when he gets to that stage! But no you are not the problem they are all that way to some extent. We have a group of us who get together most days and usually one of the toddlers is horrible. We all just sit back and think ok so today my child was good but tomorrow???? Hang in there it gets more interesting when you add in the baby!