...well, this has been one crazy year! (Warning...you are in for a long post! If you are not interested in anything but pics...there is none at the end, so feel free to get back to whatever you were doing...I promise my feelings will not be hurt!)
Part of me is glad it is coming to an end, but the other part is so so so thankful for the journey. I tallied up the weeks we (mostly me and the kids) were out of our home this year....16 weeks. Was it exhausting...yes! Was it worth it...yes!
Let's review...one year ago today, we were moving into a new home, starting a new chapter. I was no longer going to work. We were looking forward to the new adventure. Then comes the news...good and bad! Let's start with the good! I found out I was pregnant and we were more than excited. The bad...my momma had cancer. Yes, both were confirmed the same day...a blessing, a hardship!
During all of it, my baby brother was going to be a daddy and lets just say Aimee spent alot of time in the hospital. But, our Easton arrives healthy and the same week, mom starts chemo...a HUGE blessing, another hardship. Six months of it...we came in as much as we could, but it never seemed like enough. Does your mind ever wonder? Mine does continuously...mostly at night, but pretty much all the time. Never once did I think that I was going to lose my mom. I wonder why? This same disease had already taken two of the most precious people away from me...it could have taken her. But, I would not let my mind wonder there. I couldn't! Oh, geez...what would I do? So instead, we all together hold on for the ride. She was unbelievable...but, that did not surprise any of us! I was heading back to GA after one of my 2 week trips and I call home to check in. Dad answers and informs me he's shaving her head. I have two reactions when we hang up. I cry...then I start to feel sorry for my dad. I mean, my mom has alot of hair. I mean alot...probably 3 headfuls easily. Even though it was falling out in handfuls, I am sure it was quite the job! Am I joking...of course, but you have to! There has to be humor in it, right?... or maybe, just maybe it is just His way of providing pure and simple grace. She makes it through chemo like a champ...then, Aunt B has a 4-wheeling accident during one of her races. She lives with us for 2 weeks and we (literally) get her back on her feet...she too was an easy patient! Then our miracle arrives...that sweet K melts my heart. And yes, another prayer answered for the little girl who moved away from home. Her momma and dad was there! All company leaves and we are settling in for some time as a family of four...until the call came that Mamaw E had hit her head pretty bad and was in the ICU. Another 2 week trip in WV with the only medicine that can heal any wounds...2 sweet babies. Just what the Dr. ordered. Speaking of babies...I forgot to add the months of worry that surrounded that boy of ours...the ventricles in his brain...not eating...not hearing...yet, he seems to keep beating the odds. In my opinion, I would just call that a straight up shot of mercy! And then more exciting news...radiation. Yes, the oncologist informed mom during her last week of chemo that she would need radiation...30 treatments. Seriously?
So, here we are. Blessed! We have 2 sweet male additions to our family. And let me tell you...they couldn't be more perfect! Mom crossed the finish line...and after her body adjusts to all the poisons that have passed through her system she will start feeling better! And us...well, our lives are changed. Not sure really when it started...in all honesty, it was before our year long journey began. But...regardless, our hearts have changed. My husband has found his Father...our Father and our life together, with our two babies is far from perfect, very human, yet eternal!
So, excited for a new year I have pondered what my new years resolution(s) would be and actually I have a few. First, I feel I have finally adjusted to being a stay-at-home momma. However, I do feel like I get dumber by the day. I love my little ones...but, 3 year old conversations and goo-goo, gaa-gaaing with my little Lover does not stimulate the old knocker. So, I am going to do my best to read 24 books this year. I will give myself one easy, enjoyable read and one difficult, challenging read every month. I'll let you know how it goes, but I have already started book 1. Next, for Christmas I asked for this devotional book My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers. It gives you a devotion for every day of the year and I want to finish it on December 31, 2010. Next, I have to get into shape! Let me explain. I feel I was in the best shape of my life right before I had sweet Love. I weighed...yes, I am going to tell you and have no problem telling you...125 lbs. and my BF was around 10%. After I had sweet Love I dropped down to 105 pounds and fought to get my weight up. Just to let everyone know...I WOULD RATHER BE A LITTLE OVERWEIGHT THAN UNDERWEIGHT. There is a huge difference in being skinny (I'm not interested) and being in shape (ding, ding, ding). Today, I weigh 112 pounds and I do not even want to know what my BF% is. So, my goal is to weigh somewhere between 120-125lbs and my BF to be in the range of 10-15%. That is healthy and as lean as I would want to get. Any leaner you start having Madonna looking MAN ARMS...not for me either!
Finally, I have this friend, who has moved away and really now we only exchange texts. But, she loves God and it shows in every way possible. Oh...she has problems like we all do and we would talk, laugh, cry together. But regardless of whats going on...you can tell by the way she lives she is the "real deal." She walks in faith and there is just that something that always radiates about her! So, my final new years resolution is... I would like to affect one person like she affected me! That one person would stop to ponder why God put someonelike that like me in their life...even if it is only for a short time! Is that a lofty resolution...you have no idea! I am imperfect and He still has alot of work to do on me. But, I am happy that I am aware. I am excited to make the conscious effort. Who knows...maybe there will be more than one person after He's through with me!
That's it... I know, you are probably exhausted and if you stuck it out to the end...thank you! Keep in mind...today, I have only had numerous 3 year old conversations and alot of goo-gooing. And if you would like to share your resolutions for the new year...I promise I would love to listen!
Let's review...one year ago today, we were moving into a new home, starting a new chapter. I was no longer going to work. We were looking forward to the new adventure. Then comes the news...good and bad! Let's start with the good! I found out I was pregnant and we were more than excited. The bad...my momma had cancer. Yes, both were confirmed the same day...a blessing, a hardship!
During all of it, my baby brother was going to be a daddy and lets just say Aimee spent alot of time in the hospital. But, our Easton arrives healthy and the same week, mom starts chemo...a HUGE blessing, another hardship. Six months of it...we came in as much as we could, but it never seemed like enough. Does your mind ever wonder? Mine does continuously...mostly at night, but pretty much all the time. Never once did I think that I was going to lose my mom. I wonder why? This same disease had already taken two of the most precious people away from me...it could have taken her. But, I would not let my mind wonder there. I couldn't! Oh, geez...what would I do? So instead, we all together hold on for the ride. She was unbelievable...but, that did not surprise any of us! I was heading back to GA after one of my 2 week trips and I call home to check in. Dad answers and informs me he's shaving her head. I have two reactions when we hang up. I cry...then I start to feel sorry for my dad. I mean, my mom has alot of hair. I mean alot...probably 3 headfuls easily. Even though it was falling out in handfuls, I am sure it was quite the job! Am I joking...of course, but you have to! There has to be humor in it, right?... or maybe, just maybe it is just His way of providing pure and simple grace. She makes it through chemo like a champ...then, Aunt B has a 4-wheeling accident during one of her races. She lives with us for 2 weeks and we (literally) get her back on her feet...she too was an easy patient! Then our miracle arrives...that sweet K melts my heart. And yes, another prayer answered for the little girl who moved away from home. Her momma and dad was there! All company leaves and we are settling in for some time as a family of four...until the call came that Mamaw E had hit her head pretty bad and was in the ICU. Another 2 week trip in WV with the only medicine that can heal any wounds...2 sweet babies. Just what the Dr. ordered. Speaking of babies...I forgot to add the months of worry that surrounded that boy of ours...the ventricles in his brain...not eating...not hearing...yet, he seems to keep beating the odds. In my opinion, I would just call that a straight up shot of mercy! And then more exciting news...radiation. Yes, the oncologist informed mom during her last week of chemo that she would need radiation...30 treatments. Seriously?
So, here we are. Blessed! We have 2 sweet male additions to our family. And let me tell you...they couldn't be more perfect! Mom crossed the finish line...and after her body adjusts to all the poisons that have passed through her system she will start feeling better! And us...well, our lives are changed. Not sure really when it started...in all honesty, it was before our year long journey began. But...regardless, our hearts have changed. My husband has found his Father...our Father and our life together, with our two babies is far from perfect, very human, yet eternal!
So, excited for a new year I have pondered what my new years resolution(s) would be and actually I have a few. First, I feel I have finally adjusted to being a stay-at-home momma. However, I do feel like I get dumber by the day. I love my little ones...but, 3 year old conversations and goo-goo, gaa-gaaing with my little Lover does not stimulate the old knocker. So, I am going to do my best to read 24 books this year. I will give myself one easy, enjoyable read and one difficult, challenging read every month. I'll let you know how it goes, but I have already started book 1. Next, for Christmas I asked for this devotional book My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers. It gives you a devotion for every day of the year and I want to finish it on December 31, 2010. Next, I have to get into shape! Let me explain. I feel I was in the best shape of my life right before I had sweet Love. I weighed...yes, I am going to tell you and have no problem telling you...125 lbs. and my BF was around 10%. After I had sweet Love I dropped down to 105 pounds and fought to get my weight up. Just to let everyone know...I WOULD RATHER BE A LITTLE OVERWEIGHT THAN UNDERWEIGHT. There is a huge difference in being skinny (I'm not interested) and being in shape (ding, ding, ding). Today, I weigh 112 pounds and I do not even want to know what my BF% is. So, my goal is to weigh somewhere between 120-125lbs and my BF to be in the range of 10-15%. That is healthy and as lean as I would want to get. Any leaner you start having Madonna looking MAN ARMS...not for me either!
Finally, I have this friend, who has moved away and really now we only exchange texts. But, she loves God and it shows in every way possible. Oh...she has problems like we all do and we would talk, laugh, cry together. But regardless of whats going on...you can tell by the way she lives she is the "real deal." She walks in faith and there is just that something that always radiates about her! So, my final new years resolution is... I would like to affect one person like she affected me! That one person would stop to ponder why God put someone
That's it... I know, you are probably exhausted and if you stuck it out to the end...thank you! Keep in mind...today, I have only had numerous 3 year old conversations and alot of goo-gooing. And if you would like to share your resolutions for the new year...I promise I would love to listen!
5 comments:
Beautifully put, Sara. I wish you and your little family of 4 all the best this upcoming year.
**(I hear ya on the part about 3 yr. old conversations...sometimes I feel like I ACTUALLY loose brian cells everytime I play "pretend princess" with my little one. But oh well...at least we'll have those beautiful memories...if we still have a brain that will remember. ?????? Haha!)
Thanks for sharing friend!
I loved reading everything and of course loved the pics - I may need to steal the pics idea and do one of my own!!!! Miss you all!
I love your post! I hope that 2010 is happy and healthy for your whole family! God really does answer our prayers!
As I wipe the tears from my face thinkimg back on all that has happened...WOW! What do I say to you? I'm not a sappy or an emotional person and when people get that way with me...makes me a little uncomfortable, but sometimes I just can't help it. So...I'll just say WOW again. Like you said, these trials and tribulations will only make us stronger. No matter what is going on in my life that's bad, I can't help but think about what our precious Lord and Saviour went through. I know one thing...I am so thankful that he has allowed me to see his miracles and what he has done for your family (and my family too :) with my own eyes. I believe God has some awesome things ahead for you and your family! Love you guys!
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